Sparkles

I made this wish

On the days befor my birthday this year, I made a wish. I had lost a friend, and someone I cared about. I'd done nothing wrong, but that doesn't always mean we get what we want. My wish was simple... I wanted her back in my life. No matter in what form. She was just something I treasured and could have come in any number of forms.

The next day I got my wish. For as crazy as that sounds, just like that there she was... and I've not felt so happy since... I can't remember honestly.

What is she to me... ?
... she's a G6

Friends and needs...

We all have down days, where we feel like no one cares, like no one is there for us. What's important to remember in those times is that someone does care. Maybe no who we want to care, or be there, but someone...

Getting to know someone, is often much like developing an image. You get your first glimpse when the shot is taking... nothing more is known than what was just there. But then you get to mingle with them, run that image through the developer, share an experience or two, and hang that image up to dry. Sometimes, that first impression, that moment you thought you captured, turns out to be completely different from the final image, the person you really just met.

I took this picture, and let me tell you what, it looked a whole lot better the way I saw it that day.

I met you, and you seemed like a completely different person than the one I know today.

History and nothing about it

There's something about history... it's just not always as helpful as it should be. That is if you can't look at it right. I let others use me too much, and I know this. But I'm always telling myself I'm going to work on changing this. Yet if I think about it, I've been doing this for years longer than the last time it's had been too long... will I forever repeat this behavior?

Looking back I often find myself wondering where I went wrong. I can't help but decide something else could have happened to make a situation better. What will happen will happen though, and if I can just roll with it, I'll be that much more better off.

Do Not Toss

Each day something new happens. Today I found insight, again. And, rather than loose it, I intend on writing it down. It is, about being a packrat, and how to stop.

So I look around my room, and I ask myself, why don't I have a space for all of my beautiful old cameras? Then I tell myself, there's no room here. Look at all the things I have. But, how much of it do I need, or even want?

So I attack myself, judging my own reasons for keeping things and throwing away whatever I can't defend properly... very effective, and oddly I never miss any of it.

But, there are some peices to my life I can't throw away, even if I can't defend keeping them <3